Been working on myself since you left me a year ago….wondering what is wrong with me. Now I am stronger than ever and I have learned a great thing. I may have been wrong. I may have screwed up. But I will never treat someone the way you treated me. For months my heart would hurt. And even to this day it feels like it’s breaking. But after all of this I hated the idea of you moving on so quickly. I felt like nobody could ever love me…that I wasn’t good enough because I gave you everything and if you could throw my everything away so easily…how can I be good enough for anyone?
But I was wrong. I am good enough and I deserve better. I am tired of saying sorry to you and I am tired of thinking that there was something wrong with me. I have traveled down every path. Done everything twice but a heart can be beaten only so many times before it realizes that maybe, it’s not it that has the problem. I really need to work on loving me. I never got mad at you. I never let the pain show. I never cried.
You took everything from me. And I hate you for it. What did I do to deserve this? I mean….how does someone so easily take someone for gratin then make them feel like they’re nothing….then try to come back for more. YOU are useless. YOU are pathetic. YOU are the weak one. You told me that I only have relationships because I can’t stand being alone. No. I have relationships because I can’t stand to be someone like you.
I keep telling myself I need to move on. But every time….I don’t.
You don’t find the solution in reliving the past but by experiencing the present and future. If you don’t move forward what do you possibly have it to compare to?
She is the wisest woman I know. And she’s right. The next sixty days I am spending putting my life back together. Not falling though the cracks and being a better me. You no longer have power over me. Only I have that power. I am strong. I can do this. I love myself.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA….
No but seriously, fuck you.
Way to move on….induce slow clap. Ass. :)
SUCKITSLUT
